Adventures of a Physics Nerd

I started learning differential geometry without a sound base on calculus. Here's what happened afterwards. I was solving a problem on vector calculus from Lovett's  Differential Geometry of Curves and Surfaces . It involved solving a first order ODE but at first there was a square of the first derivative. All I had to do is take the square root of both sides and solve a very easy first order ODE. But, what I did was both funny and nonsense. I treated the square of the first derivative as a 2nd derivative and started solving a 2nd order ODE. To add more to the irony I sent the solution to a graduate student for feedback. Thus, the quote on the picture of the heading was born. And then he sent me a long reply on why should I study calculus with great rigor and details for a long time. I became agitated as I took it as an insult. I didn't think there was anything left for me to learn in "elementary" calculus and/or analysis. All the high sch...

How my mother died I remember how I lied about the cause of my mother’s death during my teenage. Every time someone had asked about it, I would say “ Brain Stroke ” or “ Stroke ” or something else. I contradicted myself several times while doing it. My father had forbidden me to tell anyone the real cause. So, I lied again and again. I knew no one was going to take it in a human way- or at least past experiences suggested so. Maybe it is the time, I opened up about it as I know I am just helping a taboo by not doing so. My mother suffered from a mental condition called Schizophrenia. Many times I saw her talking with herself. I couldn’t understand then, but now I understand how she suffered from hallucination, loneliness and depression. Life was hard for her, and I hardly could understand that. All the obsessions, the pressure of handling a family was killing her inside. So, in 2005 she decided to hang herself. I still remember that day. I was wa...